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Fredthecactus
01-13-2015, 01:04 PM
~ CACTUS PROGRESSION THREAD! ~
(cleaned up the thread)

Going from THIS:
http://i.imgur.com/ysnrXw3.jpg

TO THIS! (hopefully)
http://i.imgur.com/JtrPzpB.jpg

In under 365 days!
FAIL! (but wey hey)

(credit to Aufi for the wonderful "before & after")

This is just a progress thread I'm putting here for myself (and others who care!).
It's here to help remind me of my progress and motivate me, and anyone else who needs it.

For those of you who didn't know, or weren't around to know, I'm a pretty fat cactus.
But I finally got the motivation and help to make a change from TriniOii and a couple of other nice folks on here.


Weight Progress so far: 131 Weeks |-| ~60 LBS |-| 245 -> 186

Begin - 12/28/2014 - 245 pounds & depressed as shit :thumbup

Current - 7/19/2017 - 186 Lbs and living it up :agog

http://i.imgur.com/YXu4Ww1.png


ACTUAL DIET AS OF NOW:

Greek Yogurt - Find the "lite" variety. 130 Cal a cup, lots of protien and nutrients. Flavor with grapes, walnuts, and raspberries for fibre.

Chicken breast - boiled. Defrost, wash and rinse thoroughly. Throw into pot, fill with just enough water to cover all of breast. Add cyanne pepper, black salt, and other misc. seasonings to taste. Bring water and chicken to boil. Let boil for 30-50 seconds. Turn off heat. Let sit for 15 minutes. If still raw repeat until juicy and delicious.

I eat once a day now. This gives me way more energy every day than eating "normally" and makes me feel fitter and more active.

If in the mood for something filling I'll drink a lot of chicklen broth or soup. It's basically water with little calories. Watch the sodium.

If need a snack i'll have a pickle. Again watch the sodium.

PICS!

Lets begin at around 240-250 pounds:
http://i.imgur.com/guvTTZw.jpg

When hovering around 205-210:

http://i.imgur.com/M0RMdIy.jpg

Currently around 185 Lbs:
http://i.imgur.com/cdzRgDY.png?1

Thank you everybody for all of your support and well wishes! :amenable

More detailed thoughts & older thread for those who're into that sort of thing
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1AAlrippMCW3fQ4gzgKvuOn0hGfATPQVtoXeWk-2p1rY/edit?usp=sharing

Early
01-13-2015, 01:08 PM
Tomatoes, egg, sugar and milk for breakfast. yummmmm.

Goodluck fred, what kind of exercise are you doing to help with the weightloss?

Aufi
01-13-2015, 01:10 PM
When you start feeling more confident to post pics, please do. Would love to see the transformation :thumbup

Good luck cactus and keep it up!

Fredthecactus
01-13-2015, 01:11 PM
Tomatoes, egg, sugar and milk for breakfast. yummmmm.

Goodluck fred, what kind of exercise are you doing to help with the weightloss?

I just edited the thread a bit with exercise. I was doing the cardio fine with no problems whatsoever before this leg pain kicked in. It's fading quickly though so I want to get back at it today after school. As you can see atm, i'm not really in good shape (at all) in terms of anything, but I gotta just keep doing it to do anything. I heard that somewhere along the lines of 3 times a week for 3 weeks does your brain kick in the endorphins for doing exercise, making it addicting.




And thanks aufi. I've taken pics I'm just not going to post them yet since i'm technically underage and we all know people want this bod. :thumbup

Early
01-13-2015, 01:15 PM
I just edited the thread a bit with exercise. I was doing the cardio fine with no problems whatsoever before this leg pain kicked in. It's fading quickly though so I want to get back at it today after school. As you can see atm, i'm not really in good shape (at all) in terms of anything, but I gotta just keep doing it to do anything. I heard that somewhere along the lines of 3 times a week for 3 weeks does your brain kick in the endorphins for doing exercise, making it addicting.




And thanks aufi. I've taken pics I'm just not going to post them yet since i'm technically underage and we all know people want this bod. :thumbup
you should be getting endourphins right away my no soruce tells me.

Don't make the mistake of over exerting yourself when you're just getting used to cardio when you're out of shape. Shin splits are real and pulled muscles suck.

50ct22
01-16-2015, 02:26 AM
some home workouts
http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/top-5-home-workouts-from-forum.html

check out buff dudes theyre making a 12 Week Home & Gym work out Plan you might want to check out
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cB16yFr59aE

Fredthecactus
01-16-2015, 02:29 AM
some home workouts
http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/top-5-home-workouts-from-forum.html

check out buff dudes theyre making a 12 Week Home & Gym work out Plan you might want to check out
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cB16yFr59aE

Thanks a lot man. I really want to be able to lower my weight and gain muscle so I can do more of these exercises and eventually work my way up to a gym membership by earning some cash.

dindu
01-16-2015, 02:56 AM
your school lunch should be more than a pint of milk :pf

> lunch 4 oclock :wut

I guess you are trying to avoid eating any of the school's food. But don't starve yourself.

Maybe bring some food from home? you can prepare something the night before.

Fredthecactus
01-16-2015, 03:02 AM
your school lunch should be more than a pint of milk :pf

> lunch 4 oclock :wut

Nomenclature is in my style: Confusing :lol

No but look up the thread on Intermittent Fasting in this same health and fitness section by the lovely Ced. I was using that until school started up again, when I noticed a SERIOUS drop in performance in my last three classes and a total inability to focus or even stay awake. That's why I have my breakfast at 7 now, instead of at noon. Although I still want to go back to IF when school is on break ect especially since I felt a WHOLE LOT BETTER when I was doing it.

Also, I'm definitely not starving myself. I eat good meals that keep me full till the next one, and sometimes I don't even feel like eating the next meal because I'm still full from the last one. I just needed to move the breakfast up.

Also, the "lunch" for school is a pint of milk in case I really really need it and I can tell that I'm not focusing and i'm just completely losing it due to circumstances I don't usually account for. While others are eating lunch I'm usually doing something productive or meeting with my teachers about grades and college opportunity.

I will post pics when I'm comfortable (have taken some of the "starting point", just don't feel all that good about posting them yet cause while I have lost considerable weight so far my body hasn't changed very much in overall "fatness".

Sand King
01-16-2015, 04:11 PM
not believing logs til I see pics.

I kid I kid cactus :hug good luck buddy :hug

Aufi
01-16-2015, 04:49 PM
not believing logs til I see pics.

I kid I kid cactus :hug good luck buddy :hug

Before and after:



Before http://i.imgur.com/ysnrXw3.jpg

After http://i.imgur.com/JtrPzpB.jpg

Twic
01-16-2015, 04:59 PM
Who for fucks sake wants to be skinny as a fgt :facepalm

Fredthecactus
01-16-2015, 06:42 PM
Who for fucks sake wants to be skinny as a fgt :facepalm
I don't just want to be "skinny", I want to be healthy and have a good amount of muscle. I don't want to be "JACKED" or whatever, just yknow.

But to get there I have to lose a significant amount of weight because right now I can't even do the exercises needed. Think of it like quest requirements :pf

Endy.
01-16-2015, 08:10 PM
YES! GO CACTUS! :D

I hope you reach your goal buddy :hug

Fredthecactus
01-18-2015, 01:32 PM
Updated thread with the numbers for the weeks. 10/75-85 pounds so far, depending on where I feel healthiest. Thanks for everyone who's been helping me both in the CB and on the forum in general by posting useful information or motivational tools.

Kept it up so far 10 more days and It'll be a month :thumbup

I feel that around the 180-200 pounds mark I'll feel comfortable posting before/current pics, and that should come along in 2 or 3 months hopefully. At my current rate (doubtful) i'll hit it in 2.5 months. Wish me luck!

http://i.imgur.com/Lzug4Lh.jpg

Early
01-18-2015, 01:48 PM
Muscle fitness or whatever:

As of 1/18/15 I can do 40 curls of 20 with my right arm, my left arm is lacking and needs more focus (I'm heavily right handed, make your jokes).

As of 1/13/2015 I can do about 20-25 curls of 20 (dumbbells) per arm before they cramp the fuck out.
Almost NO push ups (okay maybe 1)
About 10-12 sit ups (pathetic)
~15 squats of bodyweight

Its nice to see you keeping up with updating the thread cactus. Maybe add in some more color to please the eyes :thumbsup
Are these the only exercises you are doing? curls sit-ups and squats?

You should do more with your dumbbells cause iirc you can pretty much workout your entire body with them. For push ups the way I learned to do them was doing the 'grils' push ups of using your knees which make it a lot easier and once you get to where you can do many of them you can move up to real lvl99 pushups.
From what I've read sit ups aren't the best exercise. One I like is called mountain climbershttps://encrypted-tbn1.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcSCvHh8eRK6wUm1PEvtqHr2rYA5LGJHg xQp3PBCpA6s2xuGngbutG3bd8c or if want something maybe more advanced google "M-100 workout"

Fredthecactus
01-18-2015, 07:24 PM
Its nice to see you keeping up with updating the thread cactus. Maybe add in some more color to please the eyes :thumbsup
Are these the only exercises you are doing? curls sit-ups and squats?

You should do more with your dumbbells cause iirc you can pretty much workout your entire body with them. For push ups the way I learned to do them was doing the 'grils' push ups of using your knees which make it a lot easier and once you get to where you can do many of them you can move up to real lvl99 pushups.
From what I've read sit ups aren't the best exercise. One I like is called mountain climbershttps://encrypted-tbn1.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcSCvHh8eRK6wUm1PEvtqHr2rYA5LGJHg xQp3PBCpA6s2xuGngbutG3bd8c or if want something maybe more advanced google "M-100 workout"

Cheers for the support mate.
I'll work on tidying the thread up now and making it a bit more appealing,
but in terms of exercise I am pretty limited. I'll try those "girl" push ups though, cause I've heard they help, It's just that with it being super-freakin'- cold over here a lot of my body hurts without even exercising, so it's difficult to do.

I might have to try that mountain climbers thing, and the reason I do squats is because I've heard they work out a lot of your body too, so they're good for losing weight because you're straining as many things as possible.

It is a LOT harder to do any kind of cardio now because its 1. Winter and 2. My bike broke (stationary for inside) but I have managed to get this running-in-place thing down and I've been focusing on it.

I've also gotten back to doing IF during the weekends / half days of school because it's easier to pull off since I don't have 3 hours of school left that are brain-intensive.

Thanks a mucho much mate :thumbup

Mechmeret
01-18-2015, 07:38 PM
Great seeing you taking action to improve yourself man! Best of luck, you seem dedicated. If you need some advice, be it on diet / training / life don't hesitate to shoot me a message :thumbup

Early
01-18-2015, 07:40 PM
:hug


It is a LOT harder to do any kind of cardio now because its 1. Winter and 2. My bike broke (stationary for inside) but I have managed to get this running-in-place thing down and I've been focusing on it.

There are a LOT of cardio exercises you can do alone in your room, pretty much in one spot, that are way more intense than jogging.

Google is your friend, and for some reason 4chans /fit/ can be found with good advice.

Fredthecactus
01-18-2015, 07:42 PM
:hug


There are a LOT of cardio exercises you can do alone in your room, pretty much in one spot, that are way more intense than jogging.

Google is your friend, and for some reason 4chans /fit/ can be found with good advice.


Didn't think of that mate, I'll go google some stuff now :thumbup

This "fitness" stuff is just so waaaaay out of my field that I don't know where to begin and it's really, really daunting.
Mechmeret Thanks for the support and will do man, hope to see you around here as long as I can :thumbup



Edit:

Found some cool stuff on this website. http://fitnesstrainerstogo.com/cardio/
I'm gonna try the "cross country skiers" with dumbbells.


Edit: Impossible to do! I can't not move forward when I do it, I think I'm doing it wrong.

Solar
01-18-2015, 08:40 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rks4aMiMOqI
Most exercises are so much easier seeing them being done instead of just reading about them.
I guess you were assuming your feet weren't meant to leave the ground?

Fredthecactus
01-18-2015, 08:41 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rks4aMiMOqI
Most exercises are so much easier seeing them being done instead of just reading about them.
I guess you were assuming your feet weren't meant to leave the ground?

I searched it on YT before I did it and I tried doing it exactly like that, I just can't get high enough off the ground to do it without moving forward (or backward), so I guess It'll be running in place for me until I can. Seriously, 5-6 minutes and I'm completely out of breath and can't move. I'm a total loser :ok

50ct22
01-27-2015, 08:02 PM
Keep us all posted on your continued progress with any new progress pics or vid clips. Show us what you got man. Wanna see how freakin' huge, solid, thick and tight you can get. Thanks for the motivation.

Fredthecactus
01-30-2015, 12:14 PM
I've kept the thread mostly updated so far. Weight loss I feel is slowing down a little (which is what I expected) and I've become inundated with homework/schoolwork again thanks to the relatively near ACT. Although I might not have to worry about it, the majority of people do because they are no where near their goals with the last one we took. I do feel like I have gained significant muscle though, and have been steadily working that for a while. Either way I'm hoping I can hit a significantly lower number soon (before the 2nd ACT) and then I'll happily post pics. Right now I would feel bad about posting them because I don't look too different.

dindu
01-30-2015, 04:58 PM
Inb4
http://i.imgur.com/zhELKnp.jpg

Fredthecactus
02-09-2015, 11:28 AM
Small update on what's been going on so far:

I've had some fairly positive experiences / gains so far. Yesterday (or was it saturday, I forget) I worked myself tired.
First I finally reached the 50 mark (somehow) in total curls I could do per arm overall, like I could not lift my arms AT ALL.
Then I also reached the 30 mark in bodyweight squats, which is also a significant improvement.
Then I just did cardio until I was so winded I could not move, like I worked myself so tired that when I went to shave and shower (as I usually do after working out) It hurt like fuck just to raise my arm and I had to sit on the toilet and catch my breath for a good amount of time. I got realllly fucking dizzy and ended up sleeping on my ELA homework after barely managing to finish my shower.

My self-esteem has gotten significantly higher. I've started to take better care of myself overall, working on my dental health (which was poor), and using more lotion on my face along with some anti-acne stuff, shaving more carefully, blah blah blah. I've been doing up my hair nicer before heading off to school and I've lost significant "facial" fat. My face seems way slimmer, my arms feel way stronger and less flabby, my motions seem less slothy and my legs definitely seem more powerful.

I havn't seen much loss in the stomach-area just yet, but I feel like that's probably going to be the last area to go. My wrists have gotten much smaller (less fat), I can feel my ribcage, and overall I just feel less tired in the day.

In terms of diet I've been able to stick to it quite well. The lowest weight I've measured so far was 220 (in the morning, before eating at all, after 20 hours of not-eating). My weight will go back up to 225-228 after my last meal (which I'm sure is also affected by water, but I neeeed my water). I've started sweating less probably because of a combination of less fat and better diet, and my shits have gotten significantly better (which is important, because good shits make a good person). I have not gotten tired of "eating the same" cause I do mix it up occasionally, substituting chicken with tuna and throwing all the ingredients into a pan (no oil or anything like that) and just cooking it up, or having a different kind of drink/fruit (measured out ofc to make sure it's under the calorie requirements).

Thanks for everyone who's been supportive so far. I've managed to pull it off for a month (and 1/3) and lost considerable weight and feel heaps better with higher self esteem. I also feel like I somehow have more time. Really I could not have begun thinking about this lifestyle change without some particularly helpful and awesome people on this forum and generally want to see this through to the end to hopefully become a healthier, more positive person. Thanks guys :thumbup

Fredthecactus
02-15-2015, 07:04 PM
Updated the diet to this:
http://i.imgur.com/5JP4GEn.jpg
To focus on protein - both because it will cut down the wait times between working out and help with muscle growth & because it seems like protein is the way to go when trying to burn fat and increase lifespan.

50ct22
02-19-2015, 10:09 PM
Updated the diet to this:
http://i.imgur.com/5JP4GEn.jpg
To focus on protein - both because it will cut down the wait times between working out and help with muscle growth & because it seems like protein is the way to go when trying to burn fat and increase lifespan.

Did you get premium subscription?

Fredthecactus
02-20-2015, 02:03 AM
Did you get premium subscription?

No.

Anubis
02-20-2015, 02:05 AM
Race you to see who drops the most weight by summer :yeah

Fredthecactus
02-20-2015, 02:06 AM
Race you to see who drops the most weight by summer :yeah

Ok!

50ct22
02-20-2015, 04:02 AM
Race you to see who drops the most weight by summer :yeah

Can i join?

Fredthecactus
03-06-2015, 05:32 AM
Small but large update:

Bitching:
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Sorry I havn't been posting on the thread and keeping to it in the form I shoulda been - I was really caught up and busy with the ACT (and am still in it's wake so...) but here's whats what so far in terms of health.

I havn't really had time to exercise - AT ALL - and on top of that while taking the ACT I've had 9000 other problems both in "real life" and school related in terms of stuff that others generally don't have to deal with (like planning a pep rally, playing mindgame to approve said pep rally, getting the meeting delays because of one teacher ect and having to fuck with legal shit as well) so I admit that I definitely broke diet multiple times.

Frequently actually if you count what it is that I was eating - but I managed to keep the calories (per day) down regardless even if I did have a slice of pizza or break down and have lunch at school I then skipped meals at home (or at least tried to).

Sometimes I willingly broke diet and sometimes unwillingly/unknowingly - FORTUNATELY i'm still on track. I think that water retention is becoming a serious problem but I do need my food seasoned. I've started trying to eat less quantities of "better" or denser food like meats & fish.

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Somewhat Bitching:
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Hopefully I can get over this ACT hump and finally get back on track to the regular diet. As of now I've updated the date by which I want to reach my goal to some time in august (which is when school will start up again). I also plan to join a sports team (probably football & basketball) and WILL need the money from genesis to get that done because there's no way my dad's paying for all of that stuff.

Hopefully I can get my life seriously on track because I have noticed that I've changed in both work ethic and how I use my time recreation-ally. I really believe I can pull it off. Also - not to be a fucking cheesy faggot but I am getting better at... socializing - specifically with girls, I'm not as awkward as I used to be and a few seem (to put it bluntly) like they'd be interested. Oh well, I'll see how all of that shit goes but I don't have too high expectations for myself in that department until I'm actually fit & worth something.

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Thanks:
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Also for those asking for pics - yes I am taking them - you'll see them when I'm not fat / significantly lost weight. Thanks for those who've been supportive (by being helpful on the forum from being motivational or just downright a bro like Anubis) this entire time - I really genuinely couldn't have started or kept it up so far without this forum so thank you :thumbup

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Progress graph!
http://i.imgur.com/1sD2b1v.jpg

dindu
03-06-2015, 05:34 AM
no pics yet i dun belief u

Fredthecactus
03-06-2015, 08:54 PM
:cry
Whatever you say Zax

Anubis
03-07-2015, 03:15 AM
:hug love you bro you gonna get bitches and make people jealous of your sexyness

Fredthecactus
03-11-2015, 01:11 AM
:hug love you bro you gonna get bitches and make people jealous of your sexyness

Man I hope so. My friends have noticed that I've slimmed down recently (then again it's hard to just "miss" 30+ pounds of loss). So I hope I can keep it up. Right now this a big barrier between me and who I want to be and I want to break it down while It's still easy to.

Anubis
03-11-2015, 02:55 AM
Man I hope so. My friends have noticed that I've slimmed down recently (then again it's hard to just "miss" 30+ pounds of loss). So I hope I can keep it up. Right now this a big barrier between me and who I want to be and I want to break it down while It's still easy to.

Keep doing what you are doing!! I was in your shoes not too long ago and I am actually back in them!!! But there is no limit of what you can do bro :hug I cannot wait to see your 1 year progress.

PS:I am slowly catching up to you :) On the 16th it will mark my 1 month since I started lifting and eating 90pct healthy so here's hoping for some good results.

Fredthecactus
03-19-2015, 10:54 AM
All I can say about this week is that I teeter totteringly have gotten lowest measured below 215. Which is good since that means that without water weight or w/e I can weigh that much already which means I only need to work a little harder to make it the upper instead of lower boundary.

Fredthecactus
03-20-2015, 01:41 AM
I just weighed in at 205-207 after running with the football team. I went to tryouts and conditioning for flag football - needless to say I was total shit and didn't get anywhere but that was expected. However since I didn't make the cut I can still practice with them for free every Thursday. I'm decently proud of myself and want to do better every week. Losing 2 pounds a week + running every week HARD with weight training with them is going to make this shit fly by.

Fredthecactus
03-27-2015, 01:30 AM
WARNING!!! If you don't enjoy reading depressing/self deprecating pathetic (cringe-worthy even) shit turn away NOW!


Well I havn't posted an update recently (I think) but since this is my personal Soap Box thread now anyways I might as well post it here.

I've recently hit another serious bout of depression, the cause is mostly stupid high school drama shit.
Basically the girl I liked and thought liked me back didn't like me (which is something someone had to tell me - so I don't know how much that's worth), she apparently told her parents who she actually liked and they exploded at her and she got all sad and shit meaning I couldn't even be angry at her (not that I even can be cause I'm an emotional little bitch) but I went around being all happy and shit (because I was) since I didn't have to fucking worry about anything anymore or try and figure out what the fuck to do to move forward because the last three years of my life have all gone down the drain (yeah I'm a bitchly) which she apparently misunderstand (explained right now).

Then we went to a engineering event (select few students) and it was at University of Michigan Dearborn. I was having a ton of fun and she wasn't really (cause she was sad) and lunchtime came around and she basically said that "you're happy because I'm sad" (which really fucking hurt because I'd rather die than see her sad cause I'm a lovestruck emotional high school faggot and because she thought that I'd be petty enough to be happy because her parents don't like who she actually likes and because of the way she said it and the way her eyes looked when she did, it was like raw disgust and repulsion and it hurt like fucking hell) and so I threw away the food I had and got up and left and just went to hit on every single other fucking girl in the building. It was weirdly awesome though - because I don't know how it was but every single girl I talked to was interested (like, really interested) and came back to continue talking and the more I talked to the more that came to talk to me and I felt really, really powerful because I havn't even hit my weight goal. I've just started dressing nicer and doing my hair and shit (basically, I didn't know I even had a little bit of game and turns out I've got a pretty decent amount). Apparently this made her SO angry (for some fucking reason - I mean come on you've been shitting on me for three years and flirting with every other guy right in front of me like I don't exist but whatever right?) that she got up and left even before the finals (like, left the event).

So that seriously hurt, and then further
(BACKSTORY REQUIRED)
I had/have been writing shitty poems and saving them for quite some time (all throughout uppermiddle/high school) and I had "recently" (which means basically this year) given her access to the entire folder and apparently she read through them and told ME that she liked them. These poems mean a lot to me (insert emotional self deprecation here) because on the outside I always try to constantly smile (although I've been failing at that recently since all this shit) and I'm very upbeat around everybody else. I don't open up (posting this shit here is a decently big step although I have opened up to one teacher and two/three friends completely about this shit) at all and NO ONE reads these poems because they're what I'm actually thinking at any time - and as a person who manipulates people and uses little pieces of information to their advantage I know that a little knowledge can be extremely, extremely powerful. These poems range from seriously suicidally depressing to extremely happy and shit.
(BACKSTORY OVER)
I learned from a friend that turns out she didn't actually value my poems, in fact one I had written and added to the folder (it's shared over drive, so it's fairly automatic) was about how I wasn't actually happy, I was just happy because I could be sad, which is something she quoted in a chat with a friend of mine and responded to with "ugh". and then shortly thereafter I learned that she was talking to another friend and told them that it was "about time" that I figured out that she didn't like me (and liked someone else).

Mind you, she is in my class and we still had to present together the day after, we are in like three other project groups together, we sit next to eachother in almost all of the classes I have. It's fucking painful - but I had opened up to a teacher and some friends right after and decided to just be cold to her and just not give a shit - which is really, really fucking hard to do. For three fucking years of my life she has been literally the only reason I woke up every morning - a testament to which was today. I had nine alarms ring on my phone, all of which I couldn't even hit the snooze on - I just let them ring for 15 minutes a piece because what the fuck was the point. I didn't go to school, I havn't done shit. I havn't even written two paragraphs which is all that's due tomorrow. The reason I was losing weight, dressing proper, everything was because of her, and now the only motivation I had is completely, utterly gone. Hell, I thought I wanted to die when I didn't know she didn't like me, simply because every day I was mind-blindingly confused on what to do, what small miracle I could create that would make her express something towards me. The happiest moment of my life thus far was the ACT, because during the time of the ACT I almost thought she loved me back, we got so intolerably close and now that I look back on it she didn't care then either. I thought I was depressed when I was simply unsure, but now I'm so fucking broken I don't even feel like typing anymore.

Each and every time I'm cold to her now (which is something that I have to do, because If she tries to stay "friends" with me (yeah, classic friendzone right)) it hurts right fucking where the heart is, hard. I'm 100% sure it probably hurts me more than her. Recently she messaged me with a bunch of shit about how she values my thoughts and other crap like that (as if she actually cares) because she hasn't figured out that I know now that she doesn't. I havn't responded. I don't think I will. And then she complains to other people about how I'm being "mean" to her, and people notice. We had proper chemistry - hell most people thought that she actually did like me back. But I guess not. Whatever.

Yeah, that was a bit of an emo fuckery high school dramatic faggot bitch rant, but that's the reason I havn't been posting on here or updating recently @Anubis (http://www.robotzindisguise.com/forum/member.php?u=33687) (although I have kept diet so far, because I don't even fucking know, I guess I just don't feel like eating).

dindu
03-27-2015, 01:52 AM
tl;dr version of the wall of text:


I'm a lovestruck emotional high school faggot

she has been shitting on me for three years

Fredthecactus
03-27-2015, 01:53 AM
tl;dr version of the wall of text:

Thank you for that excellent breakdown of my thoughts for the last two weeks into two sentences Zax, you flaming faggot :hug

Early
03-27-2015, 02:02 AM
Not going to quote wall of text but this is the quote of massive wall of text
You fucked up the moment you shared those poems man. I love you but it hurt reading that part.
Heres some Early Advice™
1. Girl is a massive cunt
2. You're in Highschool, you don't even understand how utterly pointless 99% of everyone you know and everything you do there is until after you graduate and you don't see or hear from 90% of the people you went to school with, unless its them posting about being pregnant at 19.
3. Fuck Highschool is so superficial man. None of this will matter as soon as you get the diploma, College is so different, you won't remember her and she won't remember you.
4. Its Highschool

tl;dr Highschool.



Edit: I knew a girl similar to your cunt. Shit was bad until I finally broke it off, she got pregnant, got an abortion, cried to me about it while I was like :gtfo and then she moved to a different state all alone. Shit was cash.
Edit: Regarding your game with girls, you're better than you give yourself credit for. Most people are.

Fredthecactus
03-27-2015, 02:04 AM
You fucked up the moment you shared those poems man. I love you but it hurt reading that part.
Heres some Early Advice™
1. Girl is a massive cunt
2. You're in Highschool, you don't even understand how utterly pointless 99% of everyone you know and everything you do there is until after you graduate and you don't see or hear from 90% of the people you went to school with, unless its them posting about being pregnant at 19.
3. Fuck Highschool is so superficial man. None of this will matter as soon as you get the diploma, College is so different, you won't remember her and she won't remember you.
4. Its Highschool

tl;dr Highschool.

Thanks a lot man, I know but that doesn't stop it hurting now, so I'm gonna try and have it not affect me a lot (ha, that's gonna be hard). :hug

One thing though, I should never share poems with girls I like, like ever? I kinda don't want it to be like that - I would like to think that someone who would love me back would love all of me back you know, but I don't know. I guess that's why I'm shit at this shit. :idk

Early
03-27-2015, 02:08 AM
I would like to think that someone who would love me back would love all of me back you know, but I don't know.
You speak the truth. But That girl doesn't even know who the fuck she really is, or what her interests REALLY are. The both of you will be very different people in 5 years, I promise. You'll probably think back to her wonder how you were so interested in her.


Save your poems until you find a 22 year old English major who plays WoW and farts around you.

the virginator
03-27-2015, 02:12 AM
WARNING!!! If you don't enjoy reading depressing/self deprecating pathetic (cringe-worthy even) shit turn away NOW!

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I'm not going to read this.

Fredthecactus
03-27-2015, 02:12 AM
I'm not going to read this.

Thanks bae :hug

Fredthecactus
04-27-2015, 03:10 AM
Those of you who asked for pics before finally get your wish.. I guess.
Info/pics at bottom of main post. Enjoy i guess? I feel like posting these here is a mistake of some kind...

Early
04-27-2015, 03:17 AM
Damn bro, the first and last pics are so different already.

But why is your room entirely blue

Mr. Bijenglos
04-27-2015, 03:50 AM
Well done Fred! Proud of you, babe :hug

dindu
04-27-2015, 04:49 AM
http://i.imgur.com/kATXRm4.jpg

TriniOli
04-27-2015, 09:11 PM
Glad to see you still putting in that work :D Keep it up :):):)

Fredthecactus
05-02-2015, 11:38 PM
Beginning a switch from EatThisMuch to MyfitnessPal, this should be fairly positive thanks to the cool barcode scan feature and friendlier UI once you get used to it - also the main point is that I'll be able to use it fluently (and more frequently) on my phone which should increase the accuracy of my diet sticking. I'll post thoughts on it later once I've used it for a while :)

Current graph:
http://i.imgur.com/uq4qTaA.jpg

Orange!
05-04-2015, 04:16 PM
And thanks aufi. I've taken pics I'm just not going to post them yet since i'm technically underage and we all know people want this bod. :thumbup

:fap :bear


Good luck.

Orange!
05-07-2015, 08:59 AM
:fap :bear


Good luck.

Razor liked my post :yay

But no srs. I've gotten a bit overweight at times, depression, lack of motivation, and love of food normally drives that for me. Fortunately I have my Dad's metabolism, I've lost 10 pounds in 2 weeks by drinking more water and walking around the block 3 times a week. :megusta

20 pounds gone :yay

(fyi was 170 ish last month around this time 5' 7")


(sorry to steal your spotlight razor)

the virginator
05-07-2015, 09:26 AM
Razor liked my post :yay

But no srs. I've gotten a bit overweight at times, depression, lack of motivation, and love of food normally drives that for me. Fortunately I have my Dad's metabolism, I've lost 10 pounds in 2 weeks by drinking more water and walking around the block 3 times a week. :megusta

20 pounds gone :yay

(fyi was 170 ish last month around this time 5' 7")


(sorry to steal your spotlight razor)

so how is life as a manlet?

Fredthecactus
05-07-2015, 12:51 PM
so how is life as a manlet?

Oh Alex, :fap

Just gonna quick post here as an update that instead of maxing 210 after eating and shniz I'm down to maxing 205 (which is what I was lowest weight at), but oddly also minimum 205 as well which is weird. Either way, the scale's needle is moving slowly and unsurely to the left, so I think I'm okay for now.

The weird thing I've been doing is basically skipping breakfast and all eating until like 4-5PM, then eating like everything I possibly can which ends up being around 1200-1500 calories (Counting them all using My Fitness Pal) anyways. I know it's bad for me and I feel dizzy some of the time, but idgaf at this point in terms of staying sane in school anyways.

About My Fitness Pal:
Overall it seems pretty cool. It's way easier to count calories on than Eat This Much and syncs across both platforms (mobile/pc). Some things are annoying about it (sometimes ads at the bottom but they're not extremely intrusive and don't get in the way of key tasks so I can't complain) but it does give friendly reminders to keep logging on your phone - which is something I often mistake for human contact. Oh silly me.

Thanks for all the support :thumbup

Anubis
05-08-2015, 04:36 AM
GOOD STUFF BRO!! Finally you joined MyFitnessPal! I hope to catch up to you soon ;) I am down 12-15 pounds myself (SHOULD of been 20 by now but shit happens...). Anyways keep it up :) Cannot wait to see them skinny nudes :megusta

Fredthecactus
05-08-2015, 04:42 AM
GOOD STUFF BRO!! Finally you joined MyFitnessPal! I hope to catch up to you soon ;) I am down 12-15 pounds myself (SHOULD of been 20 by now but shit happens...). Anyways keep it up :) Cannot wait to see them skinny nudes :megusta


Oh you know I'm sending nudes the moment I can :fap

ILike$$
05-08-2015, 04:55 AM
Oh you know I'm sending nudes the moment I can :fap

Gay :eww

dindu
05-08-2015, 05:27 AM
why does your weight loss have a linear fit, it should be an exponential decay :amenable

Fredthecactus
05-08-2015, 05:39 AM
why does your weight loss have a linear fit, it should be an exponential decay :amenable

Okay. :amenable

Early
05-08-2015, 06:13 AM
The weird thing I've been doing is basically skipping breakfast and all eating until like 4-5PM, then eating like everything I possibly can which ends up being around 1200-1500 calories (Counting them all using My Fitness Pal) anyways. I know it's bad for me and I feel dizzy some of the time, but idgaf at this point in terms of staying sane in school anyways.
Have you ever heard of Intermittent Fasting? Sounds like that is what you're doing here, but only having 1200-1500 calories sounds a little low.

TomCellWheel
05-08-2015, 06:31 AM
Looking good cactus! Keep it up man.

I'm actually doing the opposite of you, trying to gain some mass. Wonder if I should revive my old workout thread :hmm

Keep up the good work.

Fredthecactus
05-08-2015, 12:46 PM
Have you ever heard of Intermittent Fasting? Sounds like that is what you're doing here, but only having 1200-1500 calories sounds a little low.

Yep that's essentially what I'm doing - I posted earlier and on the IF thread about how that affected my performance in class and all that jazz, but since the years almost over and I don't think I'll be losing my A's any time soon I think I'm okay doing this now :amenable

Oh and the calorie count is dangerously low yes, sometimes when I'm done eating I lose all feeling in my right arm and it just goes to sleep, making me go to sleep. I don't know why, it just does. However I'm not exactly passing out or getting dizzy or anything, and the scale is still going down slow and steady so I'm going to push my luck (which is something I shouldn't do rofl)


Anubis
I forgot to post this under the MyFitnessPal post but yeah it is quite great as a calorie counter. I'd still recommend Eat This Much to anyone starting out and needing to get a game plan quick and simple, because it really makes it easy to set up an actual diet with numbers and nutrients and all that, but it's not too great at counting them (compared to MFP which has a plethora of options and is pretty lightning fast).

Gayjex
05-08-2015, 01:13 PM
Such an enjoyable post! You looking fiiiine babe! Keep it up :D

Garaa
06-24-2015, 02:14 AM
Where do you live? Nice progress.

Fredthecactus
06-24-2015, 02:42 AM
Where do you live? Nice progress.

US, Michigan. Round the arabic-y part. I've been (for one reason or another) failing a bit in terms of keeping diet and gained a few back, but I'm getting back on top of it now, or atleast hope to permanently.

dindu
06-24-2015, 03:28 AM
US, Michigan. Round the arabic-y part. I've been (for one reason or another) failing a bit in terms of keeping diet and gained a few back, but I'm getting back on top of it now, or atleast hope to permanently.

Dearborn?

ILike$$
06-24-2015, 04:01 AM
Fat Cactus -> Enormous Cactus is more like it :truestory

Anubis
06-27-2015, 03:37 PM
:D I like coming here and seeing the progress. I myself gained like 10 pounds from my 2 weeks in Puerto Rico... Yolo but I am back at the gym and dropped half the weight already. :banana: Keep at it!

Fredthecactus
06-27-2015, 06:05 PM
:D I like coming here and seeing the progress. I myself gained like 10 pounds from my 2 weeks in Puerto Rico... Yolo but I am back at the gym and dropped half the weight already. :banana: Keep at it!
Hayy I did the same thing lol (didn't go anywhere exciting like puerto rico lol, just got really depressed). But since it's ramadamadamadingdong I'm back on track. :hug

Good luck on your weight loss as well can't wait to see how much sexier you can get if it's even possible :spit

Once I'm back to where I should be weight wise I might post another pic :)

Fredthecactus
08-14-2015, 08:46 PM
So, an update.
http://i.imgur.com/POkqC1x.jpg
All of summer vacation has been wasted. I finally got hired around a week ago and they're probably going to call me in soon, but I've had literally nothing to do other than sit around all day and find new and creative ways to feed myself into a coma. Absolutely 0 progress has been made. Hopefully when school comes around that will give me the motivation (and distraction) to continue to lose weight.

church
08-14-2015, 09:11 PM
fred you will find this working drive thru:

http://i.imgur.com/hJMpWay.png

then you be like:

http://i.imgur.com/7yjhTDH.png

then summer wasted will you remember no more.

Fredthecactus
08-15-2015, 04:01 AM
fred you will find this working drive thru:

http://i.imgur.com/hJMpWay.png

then you be like:

http://i.imgur.com/7yjhTDH.png

then summer wasted will you remember no more.

Oh church, you always know what to say :hug

Mr. Bijenglos
09-27-2015, 01:25 AM
any new updates?

http://i.imgur.com/c3CBMYY.jpg

Smurf
09-29-2015, 12:02 AM
Keep on working, you seem to be slacking buddie

rsbot07
09-29-2015, 01:40 AM
very nice progress! keep it up :D

Fredthecactus
10-04-2015, 05:40 PM
Keep on working, you seem to be slacking buddie

Yeah defo slackaraususin. Got a job - but it's at dunkin donuts so i'm surrounded by ice cream, smoothies, and coffee all day.

Luckily the easy solution I've found is just stealing diet coke and nothing else. I WAS back on track for a few days and going back to losing pounds - and then we went on vacation to Canada for Eid and that fucked it RIGHT up.

Gonna try and put the hammer down again soon but idk.

Tons of work for AP classes that I didn't predict and I somehow made my senior year harder than my junior year - I know right?

Good news in terms of colleges though, cause the UM Ann Arbor rep came to our school (lady does admissions) and after her big spiel our superintendent and councilors got like me and 2 other kids and shoved us in a room with her and were like "these fucks need to go to Ann Arbor" so that's cool - although now I have even more pressure to get in.

But yeah, I need to focus but trying to be healthy/eat right takes/took a lot of time and effort since my brain just wants to fucking ahdjhahanomnomn and controlling that takes effort/energy/motivation (especially that).

I know I havn't hit my goals (way off) for either time or weight so far, but I wanna get into it again and I feel like if I can ride this wave until say dec or january w/o gaining then I can really get back into it cause it seems like that's the best "time" for me. I dunno though. Thanks to ALL of you for your support and stuff, and I know I'm a let down rn but I genuinely don't see myself going back to how I was. Updated w/ a few pics.

http://i.imgur.com/oJJ0pA3.jpg

Early
11-01-2015, 01:51 AM
I'm hoping you're going to keep updating fred.


I myself have lost about 15 lbs recently just because im too poor atm to eat more than once a day.

edit: The perpetual feeling of weakness is almost like a high

Fredthecactus
11-01-2015, 04:27 AM
I'm hoping you're going to keep updating fred.


I myself have lost about 15 lbs recently just because im too poor atm to eat more than once a day.

edit: The perpetual feeling of weakness is almost like a high

Since working, I've begun the terrible habit of bringing home donuts and shit (ITS FREE AT THE END OF THE DAY AND I ALWAYS WORK NIGHTS NOOOO)

I've also been overloaded with tons of work, but hopefully shit will calm down an i'll have time to focus on myself a little more.

Early
11-01-2015, 04:32 AM
Since working, I've begun the terrible habit of bringing home donuts and shit (ITS FREE AT THE END OF THE DAY AND I ALWAYS WORK NIGHTS NOOOO)

I've also been overloaded with tons of work, but hopefully shit will calm down an i'll have time to focus on myself a little more.

The more you decide not to take those donuts home, the easier it will be to keep it up.

Form a little discipline and keep it up and it will snowball.

Early
11-15-2015, 12:06 AM
Fred I want more updates. I'm worried about your mental state of cacti.

Early
11-25-2015, 04:46 AM
I'm serious, how is it all going? Fredthecactus

Fredthecactus
12-12-2015, 06:55 AM
Not very well Early , although thanks for the support and caring. I've had days where I buckled down, tracked everything and stayed hard under the limit, and then days when I just give up. I need to quit work but don't want to, etc etc. Feeling more tired and doing less, hell idk what's wrong with me man.

Fredthecactus
07-19-2017, 05:16 PM
Updated the thread guys. Added current progress and really cleaned it up. Personally I've changed almost a freakish amount, which is something I'm not sure I'm entirely comfortable saying or admitting yet, lmao.

Either way life is way gooder. Got myself a motorcycle, loving Uni. etc etc. Thanks to everybody who showed their support :)

Pic of the bike:
http://i.imgur.com/zwfyV2P.png


Some music that I've made: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nj5mhYL4gGQ

JhzBlanco
08-02-2017, 05:05 AM
Wow, dope progress bro!
Just saw that you started riding too! I'm thinking about buying myself a motorcycle very soon as well.

Fredthecactus
08-03-2017, 03:23 AM
Wow, dope progress bro!
Just saw that you started riding too! I'm thinking about buying myself a motorcycle very soon as well.


Thanks a ton dude! If you need any info/help feel totally free to PM me or msg me on discord :) The more people on two wheels the better :thumbup

Edit: Since this is basically my IRL thread I thought I'd post this as a bit of, um....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bgmEbFdCYKE

Mechmeret
08-11-2017, 12:35 AM
Woah, what a transformation, dude!

You went from looking not-so-cool to cool ass motherfucker in less than two years!

Smurf
01-02-2018, 12:21 PM
You better keep this progression up in twenty eighteen or else i'm unleash an alpaca on you.

Fredthecactus
04-12-2018, 05:35 AM
Bumping this thread to prevent archiving. I'm at 185 and been there for a while. Went to the gym & dieted regularly for about 3 months, fell off recently thanks to exams and life bs. Feel way better than before. Somehow actually got an adorable gf that cares about me, as funny as that is. Life is lookin good, tough sometimes, but good. Been busy. Might add a pic after exams as a timestamp. Can't wait for warmer, riding weather. Yee haw!

Edit: What I mean is this (this video was taken in November of last year!! time moves quick huh)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_3201s7INg
https://i.imgur.com/HwnuW9X.png

Edit edit: Since this is some sort of pseudo-journal and it'll probably last longer than anything else, I might as well drop a couple bits of personal info down into it. I started doing mild amounts of light drugs last semester. This is limited to weed at parties/with friends/during sex, and adder all once or twice a month mostly to pull all nighters. I tried drinking once this semester, and I didn't enjoy it. (Heineken btw). I was fucked up, but there was no real high and it just didn't feel good or fun to me. Don't plan on drinking again.

Things I regret doing: Cutting back on caffeine, poor time management, getting way too high a couple times, not finding my GF sooner, not saving up more money.

Everything else? Pretty dope. Hopefully it stays that way, and thanks to anyone whose read this and supported me over the course of my life so far, ya'll mean a lot to me and I genuinely owe a lot to this forum :thumbup

Early
04-12-2018, 12:40 PM
You've grown into an amazing cactus. I'd let my daughter date a cactus like you.

One tip though: be careful with the slippery slope that is using drugs to cope with stress/anxiety/motivation. I don't mean to sound like your dad but I've been there already.


Nice bike though! Digging the orange, 600s are a great balance of being fun but not fast enough to instantly kill you like a 1000 could

Fredthecactus
04-13-2018, 01:52 AM
You've grown into an amazing cactus. I'd let my daughter date a cactus like you.

One tip though: be careful with the slippery slope that is using drugs to cope with stress/anxiety/motivation. I don't mean to sound like your dad but I've been there already.


Nice bike though! Digging the orange, 600s are a great balance of being fun but not fast enough to instantly kill you like a 1000 could

Thanks Early :hug :hug :hug

And yep, I understand the danger of drugs becoming coping mechanisms and "trying everything" going too far, and try to behave as responsibly as I can keeping that in mind :thumbup

And double yep, the f4i is also *super* comfy for a sportsbike, ergos aren't as "crotchrocket"-ey as most other 600's (mostly cause of the seat, pegs, and bars) so I can cruise pretty good too! Just have to keep bloodflow in my legs every 4 hours or so hahahahaha

Plan to really hit the gym much harder over the summer so more gains are on the way. Just as an aside, I've found that when I stay in the gym longer and take longer rests with one or two extra sets (staying say, 2.5-3 hours instead of 1-1.5 hours) I get a muuuuuuuuuuch better workout, although I'm not entirely sure why.
Also my left shoulder burns while bench pressing, but apparently that's just me being a weakboy with a weakboy RCF :ok: